Miss You

We are being together for a month
I just realize today when the clock turn twelve
Missing you become part of my life
Love is missing you when we are apart
But somehow is feeling warm because you are close in my heart

Miss you every night when I'm still stay awake
And think of every wonderful moment of us
Even we are just have our time face to face within a week in Muong
Even we are just have our moment online these day
But they are wonderful moment for me

No matter how far we are apart
We are still under the same sky
You are still in my heart
We will walk this journey together
I will be stop if you are behind
I will be slow if you are slow
I will be fast if you are fast
This is not alone
Every step we will walk together
Are you thinking the same with me?
Are you willing to walk it with me?

My dear
Happy monthsary, it is exactly 1 month in the same time now
anh nhớ em quá
anh yêu em
anh mong đợi ngày chúng gặp nhau

My Way

2013

Dotz Cafe and family business
Another choice of question

After 1 year of cafe operating
Many things happen
Happy and sad
Choice have to make to continue of dis-continue
Contract of rental will ending this year

2 weeks ago
My dad talk to me
He and my uncle had buy a land to continue the family business
I can understand his meaning
They are almost the age of retire
And should i take over the business?
I think i will
But i will give myself time for my cafe too
I'm not reconciled to what I've currently done
it's just 2 years in coffee industries
I really not reconciled if it is just end without any achievement

New idea and new planning for this year and future 5 years
I'm thinking to change the cafe module into a real cafe
Introduce more coffee knowledge to people
Doing more workshop
And will add-on coffee tools and roasting for another way of expanding

My target in future i think i see it
The mainland CHINA
Plan well and do well
I believe i can have another way to prove myself

story of 2012

Year 2012,

year of life renovation.

My cafe dream come true.

Time flies, a year gone.

Dotz Cafe now in Kota Kemuning

will celebrate his birthday soon, hehe.

2012 is my visual artist life that's different.

Thanks to my teacher Mr. Chow

in the same time he is not just only my teacher

he is my mentor, my friend :D

And thanks to Mr. Ng Bee

he is really a great man who connected many of the artist in the world

because of him i have many brother and sister in this

AMAZING visual artist world.

He is also a good senior who is not hesitate to sharing.

Thanks to my friend Cha Hui

who is still with me in the path be an a GREAT visual artist

And the most important is my family

thanks to recognition my path to be a visual artist

And there's many many many people to thanks to....

without all these people

I won't write here today

There's many exciting fine art activities in year 2012

Workshop in Vietnam Muong Village

Exhibition in Hanoi University of Cultural

Java Spices Art Festival Visual Art Exhibition

Thailand tour of live sketching and sharing within university faculty of fine art.

I learn a lot and appreciate the chance given to me.

I enjoy all the event and glad to meet all friends

2012 is a year of end of the world

which is legend of Doom Day

i think it is

and i am in the new era now

i can be a better man since i am still surviving

2012 is the year to love and be love

This is such a exciting, worrying, expecting and conclusion is complicated feel

After the trip alone in Bali

I'd a very peaceful communication with myself

Everyday i'm just alone and simply walk, sit and look at the sea, look at the sky

thinking and thinking

and i know what should i do now

i will be honest to you

maybe is hurt now

but is better than hurt in future

i am sorry

A lovely swallow come from the ocean..

and i also know how do you think and feel now

in the same time

i miss you so

it is not only everyday

i miss you every moment

i think i am going to crazy

because of you i love regina spektor's song very much now

i am listening everyday, her voice really amazing

so pure and so real

just like you :-)

I'm coming home

Open the door
I'm home
Back to my heart
A place to talk to myself
My blog how are you?

I never meant to do those thing to you
I don't want to hurt you
It is really the fault of time
My heart is falling at the pool side
In the same starry night
In the same village
I can't be your rabbit
I know this is hurt
But I can't accept you
Because my heart is not here
She get my heart with her

starry starry night
Watching at the same sky
I know I'm with you
Distance is no longer distance
Do you feel the night?
we are looking at the same star
And the star is looking at us
I feel so
I just want be with you
I want to spent my time with you
Language is not the main problem
We already have the same language
The language that no need to say any word
I wish you know that I'm with you all the time
Feel it
Your heart will know
I'm just so close to you

等待飞行的那晚

逃避 逃避

我何时变成在逃避

感谢你把我逼到墙角，让我面对自己的心

我不是不爱，而是不能爱

我也是和你一样，只是单纯地想要幸福

但是幸福似乎离我们有点远

心疼又能怎样

我不想成日把承诺挂在嘴边

我只想默默地付出

对我而言

你的笑容才是我最大的眷恋

你的幸福才是我最大的守候

可以包容你的爱

不是他，或者他都给得到

就算是我，也不能保证满分

我想，懂得欣赏不完美的完美

才是最完美的结合吧

反过来想

我才是那个自私的人吧

我不禁在问，我要的是什么？

反反复复，我看到的是你的幸福

我要的，很卑微，你幸福就好

知己，别怪我啦

我答应你

哪天，大家心中都有了彼此

我一定不会退缩

所以你也加油啦

打开这个铺灰尘的部落格

才发现我的心已经散落

不知应该从何诉说

散落的碎片就在我的电子产品里

我不想面对

我想，我为什么把它隐藏

这份隐藏，就好像是本失落的心情日记

纪录在你的手上，时间和日期的尽头

我的心

散落一地

如果哪天被遗忘了

帮我找回来

哪怕，谁看到都好

其实我也有害怕的时候

害怕哪天我不知为何消失了

你还会记得我吗

这真的是一个疯狂的世界

我们都生不合时

老天都开我们玩笑

飞机几时才到站？

我几时才能登机？

时间为何不要前进？

难道你要让我在这个时刻重复煎熬？

就好像那个每年都在重播的白色季节吗？

流着血的季节啊

我不想被困在这个空间

更不想再被录下另一段煎熬

我可能疯了

我要走了

原谅我的自私

我会让这份默默的爱

在另一个世界发光

你要在这个世界幸福

我.心

我的疯狂世界
我
回头望了一望……

 那些日子
和自己说好的
怎么又忘了

 振作
 空虚

 内心在期待
大如宇宙创世纪的震撼
小如水纹般扩散

 一点也好
真的一点也好

2012 新年，新店，新作

今天是农历年初三
好久没有更新部落格乐

新年快乐啦
今年应该是最忙的一次农历新年了
装修即将开张的圆子咖啡馆
没错，就是装修，年29晚开工
今天已经迈入第4天了
主要墙壁已经完成，等星期4开始铺地砖

今天如预期般的
果然中亲戚开炮了
我每次做什么都不被看好
被轰的时候，有谁的心情是不低落的？我当然也不例外
我之前做的东西，并没有不认真啊
我也没有放弃啊
我承认，今次用的不是我自己的血汗钱
但是我还是会心痛的啊
既然已经决定要做了
我不会那么轻易放弃的
如果
我那么容易就受打击，我不会一直坚持下去我自己的道路
就那么找份工，平凡地生活下去，在这里并不是那么困难
但是我没有，你们可以说我懒惰，没出息
但是我背后做的东西，看不到的多的是
我不可能一一地搬出来公告天下
我还是忠于我自己的心，我会继续下去

我承认，金钱是那么地重要
我不否认大家对于金钱的定位
那也是出自于和我一样的欲望
我追求自我
大家追求金钱
我们都没有错
我也不会对于金钱执着的大家做出什么评语
毕竟是生活道路上，我们自己经历的不同，领悟的不同而追求的不同
我不否定任何一个热衷于自己欲望，自己的生活方式的人
我认为，大家为了不同的东西而活在这个世界上，真好
我们都热爱自己的生活，自己的生命
中间，并没有对和错

我这次是很认真地在处理圆子咖啡馆
我有压力的时候，还是得自己面对
我面对问题的时候，就寻找方案去解决
我相信我的伙伴门
因为他们
一切都进行得很顺利
这次，是续之前CnC animation，和决定纯美之路
而不亚于上述二次做决定的认真程度
我相信，只要去做，一定有所收获
不要哀求，学会争取，诺是如次，终有所获
问题是不会在你什么都不做得时候找上门
而是在你要行动得时候偏偏阻拦你得行动
只要你跨过去，不管结果如何，都会有所收获，有所成长
我非常坚信

我还是我
我会继续我自己的道
道，既是道理，也是明白，也是领悟，也是道路
道，就是路
道可道，非常道
不去经历，如何得道？

一下，是2012年，开年以来2张水彩练习作
续那么多活动以来（sasaran art festival，年尾各种节庆等等）
确实是慵懒了起来，龙年开始，不可以散漫下去了
我会继续努力的